So I guess I'm ready to start doing this BLOG thing on a regular basis.  I'm out of school and am a full fledged attorney now but it isn't what I expected.  Don't get me wrong I love what I do but all I do now is work.  So I was thinking the other day about having a dream for so long and accomplishing it, then what?  I'm not sure I know where I'm suppose to go from here.  Yes I still have goals but my dream has come true and now I'm just here....

Anyway on another note I'm reading this amazign book which I am just goign to recommend to everyone.  Its called "A Million Little Pieces" Its about this guy who is goign through drug rehab and its shocking and well written and really good. 

Yay one final down, three to go.  I don't mind taking tests, some of them are actually pretty fun.  I get to apply what I've learned.  What I don't like is knowing that even if I really know what I'm talking about I could still get a lower grade because someone out there is better at articulating then me.  Oh well that is life.

So I'm going to take summer classes and work full time because there are so many classes I need to take now that I know where I want to end up.  Oh yeah, I did figure out what I'm going to do once I'm done with law school, I'm going to try and work in fraud prosecution for the SEC.  I'm excited because I can do the two things I love, prosecution and banking stuff.  But that means I have to take tax.  Yikes I'm a little worried about that but I'll probably be fine.

On the personal front I wish there was one man who could just interest me a little bit.  but no most of them are all the same and are way too into themselves or getting laid.  I'm not opposed to getting laid just dont' really want to the whole one night stand thing anymore.  I want more and I think I deserve more. 

Okay back to studying.

Okay so I've been in the library all day and pretty much all night.  I hate finals.  They are no fun.  Plus once they are over I forget everything I just learned.  That's probably not a good thing. 

As for the rest of my life I'm semi depressed.  I think most of my friends are pretty selfish and I just don't feel comfortable sharing anything when everything turns out to be about them.  Oh well that's life

Long time since I've logged on.  I've been busy.  I have a week before finals and I'm not ready for any of my tests.  Kind of scary when my entire career depends on my grades.  Oh well.  Nothing else is new.  I'm pretty boring right now but maybe just maybe this summer I'll be more fun.

Oh only cool thing is I'm going to have girls night tonight and watch Love Actually.  Yay.

Okay so I think I've hit the angry stage of dealing with the whole situation on thursday.  I'm pissed.  I can't believe that he could send me so many mixed messages.  I'm sorry but that is just wrong.  Men say that women play games but I have to tell you I'm a straight shooter and he definitely isn't.  So now I'm trying to bite my tongue since today is the first day I've seen him since thursday.  We'll see if I can stay calm and not yell.... I'll keep you posted. 

by the way thanks virge for your advice its good to know I'm not unwanted or unloved.  And most of my friends have said they woudl beat him up for me.  sometimes I want to take them up on that